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Wednesday, 10 February 2016

Shhh... Part 2

It's crazy how you can feel alone in a room full of people.
I've written countless songs on it. Its the over riding feeling in any social situation that I'm in. So much so that its gotten to the point where I cant handle them any more as it makes me feel so awful, so low, so suicidal because I feel more invisible in a room full of people not talking to me than I do when I'm on my own.
And I get it I do. Who would think that someone who is ill in bed all day and has been for most of their life would have anything witty intelligent or funny to say. Its easy to forget that person is there if they're so often missing.

I hear the conversation and I used to chime in with something but now I just don't see the point, if the situation were an animation my words would have faded away above my head

I've always been a fan of Rihanna who famously has a SHHHH... tattoo on her finger and as soon as I saw it I knew it was something I wanted. Much like what my elephant tattoo stands for, this is like my way of saying I am a human being, I have a personality, a sense of humour (debatable),  and what I have to say matters IF YOU  WOULD GIVE ME A CHANCE, IF YOU WOULD GET TO KNOW ME, IF YOU WOULD LISTEN TO ME. It's not aimed at anyone in particular more human beings in general who make the assumption that I have nothing valid to say, that I'm someone not worth knowing or worse that I'm worth knowing to be able to keep around to use as an emotional (or physical) punching bag. I figured getting 'stop being wanktards' wouldn't look as pretty so went for...
SHHHH......................


3 comments :

  1. I love your sense of humour you have a great sense of humour you sure defiantly deserve a chance in life like everyone else xx don't let those wanktards get the best of you you are a very nice person xx

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  2. Everyday I get more and more proud of you! I really do wish I could meet you it would be amazing it'd be so honoured to call you my friend! We'd have a fucking great laugh haha! Keep doing you you're fab!x

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